What are You Doing, God?

I received the following article from an old friend of mine.  It was published back in the year 2000.  The questions she asks are much like the questions that many of you have asked ME!  Mary’s given me permission to share this publication.  The original article was titled, “What Are You Doing, God?” by Omar C. Garcia and Mary Aucoin.   Omar was the Pastor of Education at Bear Creek Baptist Church and Mary was a journalist and attended that church at the time the original article was published.

The questions that Mary asks are timeless.  As long as there are single people, these questions will be asked.  I hope it speaks to each and every one of the godly women who have liked my page for so many years!

The parts that are italicized are of my own re-formatting of the original text and represent Mr. Garcia’s words (to help you see who’s “speaking.” )

On a side-note, Mary went on to write a couple of books under her married name.  Yes, she married the man that God has been holding for her.  Her books, “Help for the Laid Off,” and “Hope for the Laid Off,” can be found on Amazon under the name Mary Aucoin Kaarto.

As always, if you have questions, send me a PM or comment/tweet and I’ll do my best to answer!  Read on…


Mary is a delightful individual. She is personable and friendly. A single parent, she works for a publisher in Houston.  She regularly attends the church where I serve as minister of education, and she actively participates in our singles ministry.  Not long ago I received a note from Mary via email, a note that she has given me permission to share with you. Certain details in her correspondence have been changed but the story is real. While no two people face challenges that are absolutely identical, the questions one person asks in his or her own situation can be very similar to questions others ask in theirs. Have you asked questions similar to Mary’s at one time or another?

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Hi Omar—
I hope this letter finds you well. I don’t mean to unload my problems on you, but I need to share this with someone. I’m sort of embarrassed to tell you this stuff because it is kind of personal, but I’ve always felt comfortable talking to you. Please respond when you can—even if you need several days or even a few weeks to reply. Your insight will really help me.  Eighteen months ago I answered an ad for a pen pal through the writer’s section of America Online. You know how I love to talk to people and how I love to write! My pen pal’s name is Steve, and he lives in Omaha. In the time I’ve known him, he has become, quite frankly, the best “earthly” friend I’ve ever had. Steve is 42 years old, has been widowed for 4 years, and has a 15-year-old son. My daughter Emilie, you might remember, is 16. Steve works at an accounting firm in Omaha. Over the past 18 months of writing to each other almost daily and talking on the phone regularly, we’ve exchanged pictures not only of each other but also of our kids. We have, well, basically shared our lives with each other. Steve understands me, and I understand him. I’ve helped both Steve and his son deal with grief over Steve’s wife’s death.  I’ve even helped the two of them mend their relationship at times. Steve has helped me deal with family stuff, work stuff, and Emilie stuff.   We’ve exchanged recipes, read books together and discussed them, had disagreements, made up.  Steve is one of the most decent, kind, honorable, and respectable human beings I know.

Last May I went to meet him in person, and truthfully, Omar, those were the happiest four days of my life. He told me those days were his happiest in years, certainly his happiest since his wife passed away. As I expected, he was and is a complete gentleman. We went to a couple of movies together, to his workplace, his home, the mall, out to eat, and out for numerous long drives and several leisurely walks in his neighborhood.  What should’ve been obvious to both of us before we even met in person was that we had each done the “falling-in-love” thing with each other. When we shared those four days together, my deep feelings for him suddenly became very, very real! We talked about he future, about one of us relocating to be with the other, and so forth.  You may be wondering, “What’s the problem?”  Steve isn’t a Christian. He doesn’t object to my faith but has indicated that he feels strongly that church and God and religion just aren’t for him right now. I knew he didn’t go to church soon after we first started writing, but Omar, you have to understand that at the time we started writing to each other, never in my wildest dreams did I think we would become so close, that our writing would last 18 months, or that we would fall in love with each other! During all this time the spiritual differences were never an issue.  Now they are.
We talked at length while I was in Omaha.  He’s very gracious and kind about it all, and
he even acknowledged a remote possibility that he will, sometime in the future, be open
to thinking about spiritual things—but not now. When he told me he’s just not ready to
consider Christianity, I knew in my heart that there was no way that I could consider  marrying him. No way. Nada. Finito. You cannot imagine how difficult it was for me to write to him then and tell him that I couldn’t marry him because of our spiritual differences. And it was absolutely agonizing for me to write to him that because I’m in love with him I cannot possibly continue talking with him on a regular basis—daily—as before. It’s just too painful. Steve was and is unhappy with my decision but accepts it and respects it, and I’m grateful for that.  Since I told Steve about my decision in late May, we’ve only exchanged emails once or twice a month—usually just once a month. When I called him for tax help a couple of Sundays ago, it was the first time we’d heard each other’s voices since my visit.  I wasn’t surprised we wound up talking on the phone for nearly four hours!

My questions are these:

  1. The Bible clearly states, “Do not be yoked together with unbelievers. For what do righteousness and wickedness have in common?”  (2 Cor. 6:14). Omar, what if I am Steve’s only witness to the one true God? If I stop writing to him completely, what will become of him spiritually? This is a big concern of mine. Yes, I love him; yes, I would marry him—would’ve already been married to him—if he were a believer.  My biggest concern is that he be saved. If you only knew him, Omar, you would realize what a wonderful person he is.
  2. Sometimes I think that God has allowed Satan to tempt me in the worst possible way by giving me the most extraordinary man to love and be loved by—as a test to see if I have the strength to give him up for God. I have given him up willingly but not without a struggle. I will do anything God asks of me, or at least I have been trying to.  Do you think that this is why Steve came into my life?
  3. It is beyond painful to not talk to him all the time, and I cannot even fathom the thought of never seeing him again. Omar, there just aren’t many good and eligible men out there! Having been divorced for six years now, I have learned to live alone. Yes, I have grown spiritually a great deal during the past six years, and I am grateful for this growth. I needed it and still need it. I am very much enjoying becoming more involved in our church family as well, but I am hugely lonely for a male-female relationship. Not sexual. You know what I mean, right?  Companionship!  I have plenty of female friends, but I need a man in my life! It has become increasingly painful to attend worship services when I see all of those fortunate married people, having someone to share their lives with, talk to, worship and pray with. My heart’s deepest desire is to find a good Christian man to fall in love with and marry.  So while I’m learning patience, what else is God trying to teach me? Why is this beautiful, wonderful, loving, and intelligent man given to me, so to speak, when I cannot truly have him?
  4. What should I ultimately do about my friendship with Steve? If you tell me to never, ever write him, call him, see him again, I promise you that I will try with all of my heart—but it won’t be easy.  Again, with a resounding yes I have learned to accept my singleness, but I sure don’t like it. I go to movies alone, eat out alone, shop alone—do everything alone! It gets real, real, real old. Real old.  I am trying to meet some quality people. I attend Judy’s Sunday School class faithfully.   There are mostly women there, and that’s fine, but I am lonesome for a nice boyfriend, and the one I want, I cannot have. So . . .  what am I supposed to do here?  Don’t get me wrong. It’s not that I’m not grateful for the many, many blessings God has given me. He’s blessed me greatly. You know how horrible it was for me to have been laid off for two years. It was such a wonderful answer to prayer when I was offered my current job!  That blessing isn’t making this easy, though! I guess maybe because I’m human I keep thinking, “Where is my reward for giving up Steve?!” Ha, ha! I laugh, but only because I cannot cry anymore about it. My heart is exhausted from crying about this, Omar, and I need peace—and some answers.
  5. Please tell me why you think Steve came into my life, and why I have to walk Please tell me why I can’t learning whatever it is that God is trying to teach me, other than patience.
  6. What can I do that I’m not doing right now to understand God’s will for my life?  I apologize for taking so much of your time with what must seem like a silly problem to you. But thanks for your help. Please take your time in answering this. Reread it if you have to. Please pray for God’s will to be revealed to you, because I’m obviously not getting it over here. Please also pray for Steve’s salvation. I would so much appreciate it if you would pray also that God would send the right Christian man into my life.  Thank you again, Omar.
    Your sister in Christ,
    Mary Aucoin

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Have you experienced these or similar feelings? Have you asked questions similar to those Mary asked? How would you have responded to Mary if she had asked you those questions?  Here is what I wrote to her.

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Hi Mary . . .
Thank you writing and sharing with me about all that has happened in your relationship with Steve. My heart aches for you and what you are feeling at this time. I would like to speak with you in person when we can work out a time, but for now I will try to briefly answer some of the questions you asked.

Sincerely, Omar

Question 1: The Bible clearly states, “Do not be yoked together with unbelievers” (2 Cor. 6:14). What if I am Steve’s only witness to the one true God? If I stop writing to him completely, what will become of him spiritually? My biggest concern is that he be saved.
Answer: Mary, 2 Corinthians 6:14 is a very appropriate verse for your situation. I’m glad the Lord directed you to this verse. It reminds us that we must not try to justify a marriage relationship or a serious dating relationship on the basis of evangelism. A believer and an unbeliever operate on two different planes; each lives according to a different perspective.  It is easier for an unbeliever to drag a believer down than for a believer to pull an unbeliever up. This is evidenced in part by the fact that Steve is unwilling to consider adopting your system of beliefs or biblical worldview. As for what will become of him spiritually, remember that God is more concerned about Steve’s spiritual welfare than either you or I ever could be. Pray that God will send other people into his life to bear witness to the truth of the gospel of Jesus Christ.

Question 2: Do you think God allowed Satan to bring Steve into my life to test me, to see if I would be willing to give him up?
Answer: I do not know if that is the reason your path crossed with Steve’s. I do know that God gives His absolute best, in His own time, to those who leave the choice with Him. A man who doesn’t believe that Jesus is God’s Son and the Savior of the world, however, is clearly not God’s best for you, however wonderful he might be in other ways.

Question 3: My heart’s deepest desire is to find a good Christian man to fall in love with and marry. While I’m learning patience, what else is God trying to teach me? Why is this beautiful, wonderful, loving, and intelligent man given to me, so to speak, when I cannot truly have him?
Answer: God is aware of the deepest desires of your heart. I agree that patience is certainly part of what God teaches us through life’s experiences. As for other lessons the Lord is trying to teach you through this particular situation, you might have to wait until heaven for all those answers.  I am reminded of a poem that Corrie ten Boom kept in her home during the difficult years of World War II. I think it is especially meaningful during life’s difficult times. It is entitled, “The Weaver,” and its basic message is that a Christian’s life is like a tapestry God is weaving together. We don’t choose the colors of the threads that go into our tapestries—God does. When sorrow or disappointment or hurt or frustration comes into our lives, we often forget that God is looking at the fronts of the tapestries while we are seeing only their backs. When our lives are over, however, God will reveal the beautiful, finished works of art. At that time we will see how the darker threads are necessary, how in the finished products they will blend in with threads of vivid colors to make he designs beautiful. Can the patterns and pictures woven into the tapestries be as beautiful without dark colors? No. Dark as well as bright colors are needed. God is working on each of our lives to present it as a masterpiece that testifies to His grace, power, and love. One day we will see the final product and understand how God used pain as well as joy in life to bring glory to Himself.

Question 4: What should I ultimately do about my friendship with Steve?
Answer: I think you can be a friend with the understanding that you disagree about the answer to life’s most important question. Jesus asked that question in Mark 8:29. He asked, “Who do you say I am?” Be Steve’s friend, yes; but realize that as long as Steve doesn’t agree that Jesus is God’s Son and the Savior of the world—and until Steve accepts Christ as his own Savior—your marrying him is clearly not part of God’s plan for your life. Your mentioning God’s instruction in 2 Corinthians 6:14 indicates to me that you already understand this.

Question 5: Please tell me why you think Steve came into my life, and why I have to walk away from him. I mean, how cruel is this?! Should I walk away from him? Completely? Please tell me why I can’t or don’t seem to be learning whatever it is that God is trying to teach me, other than patience.
Answer: You are learning more than you think. Unfortunately, we often have to go through some of life’s toughest struggles to learn some of life’s most valuable and helpful lessons. Those who struggle with the truth ultimately have a better understanding of it than those who merely read it. You probably will be discovering for a long time to come just how many things God has been teaching you through your difficult experience.

Question 6. What can I do that I’m not doing right now to understand God’s will for my life?
Answer: I want to suggest that you continue doing something I’m sure you already are doing. Mary, stay in God’s Word, the Bible. God’s Word is God’s will for our lives, including 2 Corinthians 6:14—and so much more! Spend much time reading in the Psalms. They speak for us as much as they speak to us. And remember, you will find two positive principles behind every negative command (like 2 Cor. 6:14) in the Bible.

First, the principle of protection stands behind each negative command. God says no in order to protect us from what He knows will harm us. Second, the principle of provision
stands alongside protection. God says no because He wants to provide for us, to give
us something better.’

You also wrote, I apologize for taking so much of your time with what must seem like a silly problem to you.
Response: Mary, please do not apologize. Your problem is not silly in any way, shape, or form. I give much weight and consideration to what you are experiencing.  Finally, you said, I would so much appreciate it if you would pray also that God would send the right Christian man into my life.  Response: Count on it, Mary. And please keep me posted. I know my answers are brief and frank. Let’s try to carve out some time to talk further by phone or at my office.
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Not long after responding to Mary, I received this note from her. As you read it, notice that although Mary was still struggling, she also was reaching out to God in faith and drawing strength from her church family. If you’ve been struggling, talk to a Christian friend or pastor, read the Bible regularly and accept its teachings as true, and reach out to God in faith and obedience, as Mary did.
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Thank you so very much for answering my message. While you believe your answers
to be brief, they were enough to get me through the day. I’ve printed your message out to hold on to and to read over and over again during times of temptation.  I have decided to leave Steve alone for as long as I possibly can, and I am going to try to forget about him. The picture of the two of us taken at the park near his home in Omaha is now in a box at the top of my closet.

I thought I was through grieving, but I see that the waves of grief come in cycles. Nothing
in particular brings them on, it seems. However, I know I have to work through my grief.

The poem you told me about was especially wonderful. Most helpful, though, was your telling me that every time God tells us no, He does so to protect us and to give us something better1.  It is really hard to imagine anyone better suited for me than this guy, so if what you say is true (and I will believe that it is)—Wow! I can’t wait to meet this new person.  Where is he? Ha, ha!  I am also wondering if there is such a person.  I mean, I know that if I tell God I’m willing to be single for the rest of my life, I have to accept that God may choose to never bring a man into my life for me to marry.  Omar, the thought of being single until I am dead is a horrible thought, one I don’t want to consider at all. But I know that God is infinitely wiser than I am!

Thank you so much for your compassion, understanding, and willingness to listen to me. I am still struggling with all of this and would like to talk to you about it all. So, if you are willing to hear me unload—sometimes through my tears—in your office or on the phone, all I can say is I hope that in return God will give you everything in life you could ever want. I’ll call you at some point during the next few days.

I keep thinking back to that horrible time when I was laid off for two years, how God pulled me through that and blessed me beyond my wildest dreams by giving me not only a job but a job I absolutely love, one I’d dreamed about for a long time. I’m just so grateful to God for making that life-long dream a reality.  So I do take comfort in that experience, because it showed me that God really works in wonderful ways. I am so thankful to be a part of this church family as well, and it means so much to me that I am—by taking part in serving others through the church—beginning to feel a part of it for the first time since I joined several years ago.  Anyway, I’ll call you soon. God bless you, Omar. I know He will.

‘Josh McDowell and Bob Hostetler, Right from Wrong (Dallas:
Word, 1994), 106.



This was written by Rick Warren for ALL parents, but I like to try and single out our single moms (and dads) sometimes.  Being a single parent is especially stressful.  I love what Rick Warren says below.  Our kids are gifts from God.  They need to be celebrated.  It does NOT have to cost a bunch of money…  It’s about attitude and gratitude!

People ought to enjoy every day of their lives, no matter how long they live” (Ecclesiastes 11:8a NCV).

“Kids need celebration!  That’s just a fancy word for fun. Families ought to have fun! The home should be a place to play. This is a major fault in many, many homes where the parents are basically good parents and are watching out for their kids, but they don’t have enough fun. They’re too busy. They come home with a “to do” list after work is over. All that stuff has to be done, and they just don’t have time for fun.

Do you endure your kids or do you enjoy them? Kids need celebration.

“People ought to enjoy every day of their lives, no matter how long they live” (Ecclesiastes 11:8 NCV).

When my kids were growing up, we had what we liked to call “Daddy’s Magical Mystery Tours.” Periodically, I shook up the whole schedule and said, “Forget the routine; we’re going to go have fun.” I would even wake up the kids in the middle of the night and put them in the car and do something outrageous — on a school night! So what if they miss a day of school? They’re going to remember that event. They’re going to remember when I got them up real early in the morning and let them eat French toast that I colored green.

Have fun with your kids! Enjoy them! No single day out of routine is going to make or break their lives. But a single special event that is crazy and fun will make a memory your kids will never forget.

If you’re not having fun with your kids at home and celebrating, don’t be surprised when they don’t want to spend time at home. If you don’t have fun with your kids and really enjoy them, don’t be surprised when they grow up and move out and don’t want to come back very often.

Don’t just endure your kids. Enjoy them!”
Rick Warren

Upcoming Movies

I have many sayings that I like to pop off with every now and then.  One of them is, “Trash in, trash out.”  In other words, if you watch the dark movies, the profanity-laced movies, you’re going to regurgitate the trash you’ve taken in.  Remember the commercials that showed the woman that ate the honeybun and her derriere became a honeybun?  That’s the same with what we feed our minds.

If you WANT a godly man (only “l”) you MUST become a godly woman.  You must feed your soul; even in your pursuit of entertainment.  And I have good news!  You have at least two movies coming out to look forward to!

The first, coming out in October, is called “Let There Be Light”.

Official Trailer:


#2:  I can Only Imagine opening Spring of 2018


I just wanted to share these.  I CAN’T WAIT!!!

“Ezer” Love

This video is the epitome of how God created Eve to be.  Not as a “helpmate…”  God created Eve as Adam’s “ezer.”  In any situation described in the Bible by this verb, without the helper (ezer), the person who needed the help would have either died or faded away.  God bless this couple.


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Using Sex to Get Love

My husband brought up an interesting point last night.  We had attended a class together and the teacher brought up a statistic, saying that in a relationship, men’s #1 need is sex and that it didn’t even register on the top 5 for women!  This morning, my husband asked “If it doesn’t register on the Top 5, why do so many women come into a marriage having “known” so many sexual partners?”

My response was, “Women use sex to get love and men use love to get sex.” His next question was, “But then it’s a lie… they’re using something that isn’t that important to them in order to get a guy. Then when they get married, they’re not as interested after the first few weeks.” BINGO!

It’s the same scenario as I’ve written about in the past:  With my first husband, I pretended to love the same sports he did (he was my boyfriend at the time). But after a few years of marriage, I would just find a good book to read while he watched his beloved Cowboys. He was actually hurt when he yelled, “DID YOU SEE THAT?” and I looked up from my book and said, “What?” He was furious with me!  And I was furious with him!  How dare he get mad that I was reading a book!  But…  was it really his fault that I had pretended to like the things he liked?  I had never looked at the sex-part as the same scenario. God DID mean for sex to be for marriage and marriages need work in every area, even sex.  After the first 6 months of any relationship, married or unmarried, the endorphins go away and what’s left matters!

Just from my own experience, since my second (and forever) husband did court me, it was definitely a unique experience NOT to use sex necessarily to get a ring on my finger. All of the dating rules changed!  There was no bait & switch.  Neither one of us were annoyed that we’d been tricked!

Example:  He always opened the door for me when we went on a date and he still does, even if we’re just running to the hardware store.  It totally laid down a great foundation for our marriage.

So bottom line?  Be yourself.  Live by the principals you will want to come first in your marriage.

The F-Word

I hate sounding like an old fogey…  like my MOM!  Lol  But here I am!  I remember my high school graduation night in 1976.  I was with my best friend.  We were dating guys who were each other’s best friends and we were on our way to meet them.  I can’t  remember the conversation, but I remember saying, “Damn it!”  I gasped and put my hand over my mouth.   I had stunned myself!  My friend was driving and she gasped and looked at me with disbelief.

After that I would use the “D” word sparingly.  Once the abuse in my first marriage started, I would use the “F” word as a warning to him and for myself that I had reached the end of my rope.  If that word came out of my mouth, it wasn’t because I was about to explode, it meant I was in the middle of an explosion!  Was it right? No.  Scripture gives us the following verses (among many more):

  • Colossians 3:8 ESV ‘But now you must put them all away: anger, wrath, malice, slander, and obscene talk from your mouth.”
  • Ephesians 4:29 ESV “Let no corrupting talk come out of your mouths, but only such as is good for building up, as fits the occasion, that it may give grace to those who hear.”
  • Matthew 12:36-37 ESV “I tell you, on the day of judgment people will give account for every careless word they speak, for by your words you will be justified, and by your words you will be condemned.”
  • Matthew 15:10-11 ESV “And he called the people to him and said to them, ‘Hear  and understand: it is not what goes into the mouth that defiles a person, but what comes out of the mouth; this defiles a person.'”
  • James 3:10 ESV “From the same mouth come blessing and cursing. My brothers, these things ought not to be so.”
  • James 1:26 ESV  “If anyone thinks he is religious and does not bridle his tongue but deceives his heart, this person’s religion is worthless.”

To this day, I still struggle with reaching that level of rage and it’s usually when faced with false accusations or something being totally unfair.  I will walk out of the room before allowing myself to use that word.  I do NOT want to lose my witness, especially with loved ones…  and they’re usually the ones we’re the most comfortable around and allow our mouths to run out of control, right?

Today, I hear 12- and 13-year-olds using the “F” word where I wouldn’t have even used the “D” word at the age of 18.  It’s used as an adjective to enhance a verb.  So if the worst word in history is being used in mundane conversation, how do we know when anyone has reached the end of their rope?  When they pull a gun?  When they attempt suicide?

God tells us in his word how He wants His people to talk.  In order to attract a Godly man, mustn’t  our speech reflect our lives?  Shouldn’t our walk be transparent?  If we want people to want what we have found in Christ, shouldn’t our speech be pure? Give it a try for a few hours, a few days, a few months and the rest of your lives.  God expects it and so does your godly man.

Starting Over

If there was one thing I could do over again after my divorce and before all of my mistakes, it would be to take this class.  I urge anyone, man or woman, who has just had the rug pulled from under you emotionally and/or financially (usually they’re together).  Get with a friend and split the cost, but DO this program!  Call around and see if a local church is hosting it!  It’s amazing and I highly recommend it!


#GodlyWomen #FPU #FinancialPeaceUniversity

Jesus Wept

In John 11:33-35, it says:  (33) Therefore, when Jesus saw her weeping, and the Jews who came with her weeping, He groaned in the spirit and was troubled. (34) And He said, ‘Where have you laid him?’ They said to Him, ‘Lord, come and see.’ (35) Jesus wept.

The first assumption people jump to is that Jesus was sad because his friend died…  but that doesn’t make sense, does it?

Have you ever had a friend come to you in deep pain and there was little or maybe nothing you could do, but you looked at them through tears; knowing that their pain was so deep that you grieved for them and with them?  I think Jesus wept for the pain of living.  He knew he was bringing Lazarus back, didn’t he?  He understood the pain of those who were living.

He knows your pain, too sister.  Whether you are laying by yourself in a bed and crying, or at a party where everyone’s on a date and you’re smiling and doing your best to enjoy yourself…  He sees you.  He knows what you’re feeling.  Never, ever doubt that.  He loves you that much.

Don’t allow doubt to linger.  You are loved beyond riches.

Sexual Abuse… Guard Your Daughters

I just heard some statistics that I’d like to share with the single Moms.

Sexual Abuse Risks state that:

  • For Non-biological married parents (example:  step parents) the chance of a child being sexually abused is 9x the normal risk.
  • For biological parents who are unmarried, the risk is 5x the normal risk.
  • For a single parent (usually the mother) cohabitating with someone, the risk is 20x greater than the normal risk.
  • For a single parent, living alone, the risk is 5 x greater than the normal risk.

For myself, I fell into the first bullet point when I was a child.  My step-father sexually abused me.  So as an unsaved young, single-mom I actually did live with a couple of guys.  My heart stops knowing the risk I put my children in.  Once I accepted Christ and started attending a true, Bible-believing church, I learned very quickly that the best thing I could do for my kids was to stay unmarried until they were out of the house.  I chose to do that and to this day, I’m grateful that I did.  I have no regrets that I was single for almost 19 years.

I go into more detail in my book, which is available on Amazon, among other places.  My first prayer as a born-again Christian was that God take my mistakes and use them; to please not let my pain go to waste.  I’m here to share my mistakes so that at least one person hears.  I’ve taken some virtual punches for my stance on abstaining from sex outside of marriage and I’m willing to take the criticisms and the derogatory remarks because somewhere out there, there may be one woman; one single mother; who needs some direction.  She’s reeling from a divorce or a bad breakup.  I’m here for you and I hear you.


God bless all of you, my sisters.  You are loved!

Christmas Alone… Again

Coming from a woman who spent many Christmases alone, including not being with my children; one estranged and the other was just wrapped up in her own life…  I know that this can be a trying time.  One year I even went and sat in a bar on Christmas Eve, just to get out of my doldrums.  It doesn’t work. #Godlywomen

So what does work?  Look around.  Do you see one thing you’ve accomplished because God was faithful.   There might even be one or two things.  For me, God enabled me to buy a small, very inexpensive house.  Much of the furniture was bought used, but over the years I was able to buy little things to fix it up…  little “cheap” things, but they were mine; bought with my blood, sweat and tears.

For a few  years I invited my Bible Study over and we’d get through Christmas Eve together and then I’d find another single girlfriend and go see a movie on Christmas Day.  If you’re not involved in a church, this is the perfect time to find one.  If there is a single’s Bible Study, get involved; if there’s not one, talk to the pastor!  Why wait on someone else?  YOU help get one started!  Take God out of the box, He’s not there anyway.  Ask Him what He wants you do.  You have?  He’s not answering?  Do something…  anything until He does tell you.  Do something for Him; i.e., volunteer!  Eventually He’s going to answer.  I promise!

Merry Christmas, my sisters!  Remember how much He loves you.  Know that you are all on my heart and mind this Christmas season.  May God bless you each abundantly.  Stay warm (or if you’re in Texas, chill out), drive safely, call a friend if you need to, and thank God for the small things.

Merry Christmas!